When she was 4, she wished she could wear makeup, and ::mini skirts:: Now, she wishes she could play in the mud, and sleep with her teddy bear that used to be her best friend… she used to wish for change, and now her wish finally came true, after that she would do anything, to stop everything from diversifying

Do anything and everything in life… because there’s gonna come a time when you think back when you were just a kid; When you’re biggest fear was that Santa Claus was gonna give you coal for Christmas. That you’d stick your tooth under our pillow, and t he tooth fairy would forget to leave you a 5 dollar bill…And that it wouldn’t cross the Easter Bunny’s mind to leave you a basket of treats. Then you’ll see that you’re only fear you can’t seem to get over is the fear that all those little childhood worries are just gonna be memories… and before you know it, you’d be the one saying, “ Wow, those were the days…”

She changed her hair, painted her nails, and renewed her wardrobe; She changed herself because she wanted to be noticed by the jock that every girl fell for… But while she was doing so, she lost her [ number 1 ] secret admirer. The guy that thought she was perfect when she wore too much make-up, and when she dressed in ripped jeans. The guy that dreamt about being with her, while she dreamt of being with another…

“Sometimes, you gotta teach yourself how to get up from a hard fall… cuz if you call for someone’s help… they just might push you back down…. ”

There was once a girl who hung out with her friends every Friday night. A girl who would say Lol after every 4 words, she would laugh when she slipped while ice-skating, and just flowed through life without a problem. Over the summer, the girl fell, but not from ice-skating, no, but for a boy. He was perfect; Perfect hair, smile, everything…he told her he loved her one day. But little did she know she was caught in his trap. Days later, she got a call from him saying, “I don’t love you anymore, you’re not worth the affection…” and the phone was hung up. School started, and the girl walked to lunch alone, laughed, but only when she thought about how stupid she was to fall for him, and discarded all of her friends from any future “Friday night fun.” What happened to the up-beat loving girl? I’m really starting to miss her more and more.

Friends are the ones that would give the world to you. Best friends are the ones that already have… <\33 And sometimes I wish I was still 6 years old. Because the hardest thing I had to deal with then, was Ken breaking Barbie’s heart. But now…now I must be Barbie, because Ken simply destroyed me… Imagine a world without war. A world without AIDS. A world never poor, because everyone got paid. A world with clean air, so everyone could breathe. A world where leukemia didn’t still your hair, and where going blind allowed you to see. Imagine a world with endless dreams, dreamt will all eyes open. A world filled with sunshine beams, and words for the def spoken. Imagine a world in color, and the black and [white] will soon go, a world where we love each other, and where every star can glow. I wish you knew everything like you say you do. Because if you knew how much you’re on my mind or how much you’ve got me sprung… Maybe your *** would start to come around. && for once she wants to be the person to have a secret admirer. The person to be thought of 24 hours, 7 days a week. She wants to be the person that gets all those stupid love notes. She wants to feel the feeling of having someone sprung over her. && for once, just once, she wants to be told that she's loved by someone who actually means it...without having to tell them she loves them first. I wish I could pause everything. I wish i could put my life on hold, just for a second. I wish I freeze my tears for a little while. I wish I could put emotions on layaway until I know how to handle them. There’s a difference between, “You can’t have everything in life,” and, “You can’t talk without taking action.” Believe me, I would grant all my wishes if I had the power. But I don’t. So the only other choice I have is to close my eyes, and runaway. Bend down to my knees and just pray. Be thankful for what I have this very day. And for everything I’ve been blessed to say. Depend on no one because in life there’s a road you take. And one day, that road splits in two. At the end of each road is success, or failure. This isn’t a “guessing game,” it’s a, “You’re the only one that can choose your destiny.” By depending on no one, you make your own decision on you’re life. So choose wisely because either way, there’s no one to blame around you. Yesterday was a day before today. Tomorrow is after today. Today is after yesterday, but before tomorrow. Yesterday is behind both tomorrow and today. Today is between yesterday and tomorrow. So tomorrow will be today after yesterday. Which ever way it goes… live for right now. Because those days aren’t guaranteed… not even to the richest man **Flashback; Turn back in time where you used to sit 4 hours watching the Rugrats. Where you wouldn’t ever leave your house without your nano baby, and when Blues Clues was actually challenging. Rewind back to the times when your favorite shows were Doug, Ren & Stimpy, Pinky and the Brain, AAAAAAAH Real Monsters!, and Rocko’s modern Life. When you watched re-runs of TGIF, Step by Step, Family Matters, Dinosaurs, and Boy Meets World. When you remember reading every series of Goosebumps, or in that case, remember listening to your mom read them as she grew bored and bored and as you grew more excited as to what would happen next. When bringing plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school was pretty much cool, and saying “NOT,” after every sentence was the way to talk. When every argument was settled by rock paper scissors, bubble gum bubble gum in a dish, or daddy had a donkey inky binky bonky. When cops and robbers was a daily activity, and when hide and go seek was put to pause only when it was snack time. The days when we used to actually obey our parents and when the radio was all we depended on for music. When you knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green ranger, were meant to be together. When you always wanted to send in a tape to America's Funniest Home Videos . . . but never taped anything funny…so you gave up. When the Magic School Bus made you think that school buses could fly, and when yo-yos made you popular. When getting married meant buying your crush a Ring Pop, and blabbing some random words behind the dumpster. When reading that little paper in the fortune cookie meant everything to you because it predicted your life. The days when you could tell furbie all your little secrets and expect him to talk back, and when Beanie Babies were the talk of the class. When you got creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?" And when you knew the Macarena by heart. When you lied to your parents to bring you to McDonalds because you were starving, when really, you wanted to play in the play place. When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing, and when checking out drawing books and "Rainbow Fish" from the library was the cool thing to do. Before we realized all this would eventually disappear we didn’t bother to think of how good things were. Flashback…to the world we live in now. **You think you know who your true friends are? wait till high school & see who's there for you when your ex boyfriend spreads rumors about you. Think you'll never do drugs? Wait till it's right there in front of you & all your "friends" are doing it. Think your tough? Wait till you say the wrong thing to the wrong person-see who backs down first. Think you're smart? Wait till you have an English paper, science project, history test & a 10 minute monologue due tomorrow cause you were absent for 1 day. Think you're cool? wait till you're the only one who doesn't make the sports team, see how cool you are then. you think you're popular? Wait till your parents can't afford the new Hollister jeans everyone has. Think you'll never fall in love? Wait till a guy looks deep in your eyes & says he loves you. Think you'll never get your heart broken? wait till that same guy who said he loved you is holding another girl behind your back. Think you won't have sex? Wait till the guy you think you love says it'll make you closer. Think "nothing's going to happen to you"? Yea wait till you're sitting in a jail cell, wondering how you got caught. Think that you're always going to be your own individual? Well wait till one morning when you look in the mirror & you're just like everybody else. Dear Boy, So maybe you & I were supposed to end this way, both going in our own directions. We are two completely different people and no matter how hard we tried, we couldn't overcome our differences. No, I'm not sad that it's over between us, but yet I'm not happy either. We had something special, but in the end the sparks just didn't cut it. Anyways, I'm mostly writing this letter to tell you I've met someone else, someone else who can make me smile & give me butterflies. Someone who reaches for my hand first and likes to rub my thumb, just like you did. He knows that I love it when boys hold the door open for me & I love to joke around. He makes me happier then I've been in a long time. Maybe he could be the one, who knows? But Boy, I want to thank you, you showed me what love was, what love meant. I hope someday you find the perfect girl, because obviously I never was and never will be; at least not for you. I wish you all the love & happiness in the world; all I ever wanted was for you to be happy and I guess now, I'm finally getting my wish. Goodbye boy, never forget me. I love you! Sincerely, Me *I was really only coming to your house that night...to pick up my movies and a few sweatshirts I left there. I wasn't looking for a conversation. I wasn't searching for one last good bye kiss. You had moved on, and I had convinced myself that getting back my stuff... was the last step, and then I too would move on. But as I grabbed the movies off the shelf and turned to face you for the last time... I felt my heart start to beat faster and the butterflies I kept telling myself weren't there...started to make me smile. And as you came closer my palms started sweating. It was like...the past month, we had forgotten what we made. What we had. And in a matter of minutes, it came back to us. As you put your hand on my face and we kissed...I felt like my heart, slowly became unbroken...and all the tears, were suprisingly worth it...and I realized that maybe losing you was what I needed... to show myself that...you truly are my everything...and then baby, we fell completely in love with eachother...all over again.* I'm so tired of falling and picking myself up. I've fallen one too many times, And I can't keep learning from my mistakes. I've done my part so it's time you do yours. You can do one of two things. You can make things right, or leave them wrong. Everyone says love hurts. When actually love doesn't hurt. Love didn't leave you for some other girl, it didn't cheat on you, nor did it break your heart. So stop blaming love for once and start blaming the as shole that treated you like crap and gave you up How far do I have to go to make you understand I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't keep on giving, go on living with the way things are So I'm gonna walk away And it's up to you to say how far And no, there's never going to be more than this; I have better things to do than sit and give it all to you. Sometimes I don't have enough of a backbone to tell it like it is, but I swear I won't ever let you know how I feel. I won't ever let a sentence with the slightest indication of me wanting you leave my lips, and that's something I know dang well. I don't want someone constantly Saying I'm beautiful or hot or sexy. I want someone who will fight with me, Tell me he hates me And acts like he's crying just so I will kiss him. I want someone who will make fun of me, Do things with him, And his friends, And not always do everything I say. I don't want the "perfect guy" to every other girl. I want my perfect guy. The one who is no where near perfect And knows I'm not either, But loves me anyways. Don't base your decisions on the advice of people who don't have to deal with the results. Yeah i really loved you but i regret it all now You want to know why I love you? its cus you loved me when I didn't love myself. its cus you held up my beauty for me to see. its cus you cared unconditionally, just the way I was. it was cus for the first time in my life.. I didn't have to work so hard at being happy I'm so sick of immaturity, of name calling, of labels, of gossip..of High school. It doesn't make sense any more. & I find myself being nice to people that I rather kill. Always be a first-rate version of yourself instead of second-rate version of somebody else.. & you know what I liked the best? How hours after you kissed me, I still felt it on my lips. Friends are friends, & in some cases, that's all they`ll ever be. Because guys like you are the reason they made waterproof mascara. Doesnt it suck when he knows just how you feel about him and he doesnt do a thing about it because he just doesnt care?? If you have to try an convince yourself you don't care about someone- you care about them more than you think. Why should i do my makeup? why should i do my hair? it's not like tomorrow you will suddenly start to care Sometimes I want to get into an accident, Not for the attention, But just to see how much you "care". And it's because of you that everything lately seems to be so hard. Don't ever say it wasn't meant to be, Because if it wasn't you wouldn't have gotten involved in the first place. <|3 Even though i can say it's his loss, deep down i know it will be mine too.. Do you see her face? girls like that are born with a boyfriend. I hate how theres always going to be those akward times WHERE ME AND YOU LOOK AT EACH OTHER && remember how things used to be "You just have to go after what you want. if it doesn't want you back, so be it. it doesn't deserve you anyways." We go to school for thirteen years & the one thing they never teach us is how to say goodbye.. Here I am sitting here again reading quotes again, With only one person on my mind the whole time. Laugh at stupid jokes. CRY. Get revenge. Apologize. Tell someone how much they really mean to you. Let someone know what they're missing. Laugh till your stomach hurts...live life, because tomorrow's not guaranteed to anyone. I'm sick of pretending I don't care 'cause obviously I do. I'm sick of being treated this way. Especially by you. I don't want to hear that you don't care and you tired of hearing about me, even if it's true. I don't want to hear that you've fogot about me and found someone new when all I can think about is you. News flash : when a girl says she's cold, you're not supposed to say, " me too. " SORRY HUN. BUT UNLIKE YOU, I'M NOT A DOORKNOB WHERE EVERYONE GETS A TURN. I'M MORE OF A CASINO. WHERE ONLY THE LUCKY ONES WIN THE JACKPOT. You know it`s love when the silence between you two is comfortable. The world is going to throw us a million reasons why this isn`t gunna work out between us, but I`m armed with the one reason why it will ; I love you You can`t do this. You can`t put one relationship on hold for another. It`s like call waiting..you leave one person on hold long enough & they`re going to hang up. Love your enemies just in case your friends turn out to be a bunch of bastards Don`t be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You`re deeply missable. However, he`s still the same person who just broke up with you. Remember, the only reason he can miss you is cause he`s choosing, everyday, not to be with you. I don`t want your boyfriend. Nobody wants your boyfriend. That's why he`s with you =] Everyone says love hurts. When actually love doesn't hurt. Love didn't leave you for some other girl, it didn't cheat on you, nor did it break your heart. So stop blaming love for once and start blaming the ahole that treated you like crap and gave you up! You want to know why I love you? its cus you loved me when I didn't love myself. its cus you held up my beauty for me to see. its cus you cared unconditionally, just the way I was. it was cus for the first time in my life.. I didn't have to work so hard at being happy I don't want someone constantly saying I'm beautiful or hot or sexy. I want someone who will fight with me, Tell me he hates me And acts like he's crying just so I will kiss him. I want someone who will make fun of me, Do things with him, And his friends, And not always do everything I say. I don't want the "perfect guy" to every other girl. I want my perfect guy. The one who is no where near perfect And knows I'm not either, But loves me anyways. & you know what I liked the best? How hours after you kissed me, I still felt it on my lips. You know it`s love when the silence between you two is comfortable. The world is going to throw us a million reasons why this isn`t gunna work out between us, but I`m armed with the one reason why it will ; I love you Love your enemies just in case your friends turn out to be a bunch of bastards I don`t want your boyfriend. Nobody wants your boyfriend. That's why he`s with you =] If you love someone let them go, if they return to you it was meant to be, if they don`t.. date his brother && it all comes down to that one person you think about before you go to sleeeeep <3 I believe in love at first sight, Hope of a new tomorrows, Second chances, Living with no regrets, Long walks on the beach, & Knowing that everything has a purpose. you can't tell someone you love them & then change your mind; that's not how it works. once you love someone, you always love them, don't you? isn't there a part of you who thinks of him for no reason what so ever? they'll always be in the back of your mind, & no matter how much you love someone else, you always love him too. <3 I wish everyone in the world was a different color. Some shades would be similar, but there would only be two of the same color. The goal would be to match colors. Along the way there will be several people with similar shades, but none your true color. But when you find your matching color staring back at you, you'll know. ((((Conversation between ex's)))) (((Bold-what they said Italics-what they thought))) Girl: Your new girlfriend is pretty. I bet she stole your heart Boy: Yeah...she is. But you're still the most beautiful girl I know. Girl: I hear she's funny and amazingg. Everything I wasn't. Boy: She sure is. But she is nothing compared to you. Girl: I bet you know everything about her by now. Like you knew everything about me. Boy: Only the stuff that counts. I can't even remember half the stuff she says because I'm too busy thinking of you. Girl: Well, I hope you guys last. Because we never didn't. Boy: I hope we do too. What ever happened to me and you? Girl: Well, I gotta go. Before I start to cry. Boy: Yeah...me too. I hope you don't cry. Girl: Bye... I still love you Boy: Later... I never stopped. Great love? - - - Its when you shed tears for him..and still care for him Its when he ignores you.. but you still long for him Its when he starts loving another girl - - And yet you manage to smile and find the courage to say " Im happy for you " Two people who broke up could never be friends. But if they are, then they were never in love or they still are. [my ex and I still are…im not really sure which is the case lol] how come guys... "exchange facts" but its assumed girls are"gossiping" "are in a bad mood" but its assumed girls are "pmsing" "are always hungry " but its assumed girls "need to get in shape and lose weight" " just dont want a girlfriend" but its assumed girls "are too ugly to get a guy" Guys get away with things too easily A LIE can travel halfway around the world while the TRUTH is putting on its shoes. Hope you liked them... *Much Love* ~God Bless~