Hi AnonymousUntilNowMuaha. Well first of congratulations on making this far in life. Reading the shot snippet of your life I’ve seen you struggled through a lot and I know this might sound clique but we’ve all went through the same process. Every now and then people would think to themselves “What the hell am I doing?”. I’m 19 and I remember during that time I’ve been through the same thing. I was shy, medicoure and the wierd kid to be picked on in middle school because i transferred from a private school. I moved a lot during my life because my parents were divorce and transferred to many different schools. I’ve never been motivated and my parents weren’t a source of motivation and had very little friends. It wasn’t till freshman year where everything came together as I realize I’m living my life for the betterment of others. I became more sociallable and lifes been pretty good to me for now =p. I guess my biggest motivation is my Mom’s struggle to keep us a float as a single mother and my friends who I can call to talk to. I guess my advice to you is “who are you living for?” my answer would be my family find out yours and then you begin to see. I’m also study to become an educational counselor when I was inspired by a T.V show of abused girls from there parents and that struck me that I’m living to help others. So good luck in your search I’m sure eventaully you will see the light =p.

just relax man if u have to apply for colleges then go apply or just go to community college if you think ur not ready to move out every second you stress out is a waste too so what i would do is relax and just think about anything to make u feel good